twist

sometimes
if you move closer
things aren't as it seems

at this point
i've thought i'm bad at controlling my emotions
the fact is
you all didnt read my mind when something unpleasant to me is happening

i'm actually controlling it better than you thought...

don't judge me from the surface

drowning

supposed to be sleeping now
not used to sleeping so early?
bothered by thoughts
thoughts of her

why can't i just be a man and take it?
why do i have to punish myself for feeling this?
can't i just remove all of them from my mind and rest?
why can't i just let them all out and feel better?
i'm her nobody
i dont deserve this
i dont have to think of this
let me sleep in peace

can i just handle jealousy
can i forget everything i see
can i not overreact to normal stuffs like this

is it just sense of hollowness
is it just a need of filling
or is it true
or is it truly twisted

hope is only an illusion
i wonder if im blessed or cursed..
im devouring myself

complicated

you, are complicated
can i point the finger at you and laugh?

i, am complicated too
can you point the finger at me and laugh?

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haha i'm mad

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actually 8205,
5 wasnt taken intentionally

i'mtoldredsign

i'm told to stop writting..

and i'm told that it's my blog, no one can decide what you do to it..

who do i listen to?