Land

when i was gonna jump
i never thought i was gonna land so soon
now that i've landed
was my feet steady enough to support my body?
or maybe the collision impact is yet to come.

why do i not worry so much anymore?
i basically dont care about whatever that's going around the world
neither do i care about the specific details that's happening around me if it doesnt affect my life
even if it might be something that may be useful in the future
even if i know doing things last minute is bad.

wondering if its the lack of happiness that made me this way.
wondering, also if im 'given' the happiness, would i change the way i am?