keep out. it's boring.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

impulsive defeat

i've screwed up...
never thought i could be so impatient..

thank you for bursting though..


and i know, i'm freaking you out

Saturday, July 28, 2007

i took pic of my car hitting 8039km
i'm so weird

when's next time?
every this time's next time..
but at least she does think of me now, right?
and i would convince myself that she did
even though i don't know if she actually does

i hate
waking up
in tears

she knew all along
did she intentionally did that?
denial through delay
oh im too sensitive
and she apologized

Thursday, July 26, 2007

irony part 3

unfinished log book
syllabus that i didnt cover at all..
undone reports
time is running out

suddenly she talks a lot
suddenly she doesn't talk much
im no different..
can't complain on that..
and also, in no position to complain of that..

she didn't move away...
is that a good thing to me?

would friday be another denial?
rearrange it, and it still will be my enemy
i'm both bad at luck and these..
let's not expect so much so i wont get to fall from the top

she's certainly uncertain..

ok gua

Wednesday, July 25, 2007


i push my fingers into my eyes
it's the only thing
that slowly stops the ache

ok correction

i push my towel into my eye
it's the only thing
that slowly adds the ache

and my towel is all covered in blood..
not a lot of blood but yea, blood..

and she has to see me with my eye like this... =(
but it doesn't matter to her anyway right?
i'm not like someone she expects anything from

and i took a picture of my car hitting 7866km, haha
actually it was sent to repair at 7855km and it returned at 7867km
and i wasn't in the car at 7866km
but trip A was a few kms behind the real distance

ok that was the weirdest thing i ever did in my whole entire life

Sunday, July 22, 2007



tiring day..

stupid microcontroller..

i need some happy thoughts...

happy thoughts, raggy, happy thoughts..





yum yum

nitez nitez

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

*V* 'tink!'

at least i don't feel like i'm wasting my time
it's as if im camping in the engineering workshop.

at least i gave a better impression
shouldn't expect so much though

i can save myself from this
it's not a big problem

looking forward to my 'request' or what should i call it
even though it seems that i dont really have anything to say
but i'm sort of glad that i'm not the only one not having things to say
even though its nothing to be proud of

i hope i'm advancing
whatever happens will be a memory
and the very least to make myself happy is
to fantasize on a victory which never happened


Saturday, July 14, 2007


she stared at the pen drive
then at me
then silence...


fear, so silenced

Sunday, July 8, 2007

No Time To Cry

Woke up crying for an hour
stupid huh?

i'm turning invisible

everything will be alright
everything will turn out fine

Friday, July 6, 2007


im recovering i think
shown by the less frequent posts

so little time
so many things to do
wasted too much time in the past
no time to regret

i'm not so bad i guess..
i find myself distancing from some people
and getting closer to some people
is it supposed to be like that?

should i give one last try?