Easily Satisifed

easily satisfied
just because i was never really happy
i hope that i've found somewhere or someone to belong to
but that's just selfish
seems like i wanna drag someone down to share my misery

i'm not such a bad talker am i?
timing's not right
i felt wrong to feel agitated upon not receiving the attention i expected so
and now i learn to differentiate the so-called 'timing'
have i truly mastered identifying the very slight changes?

everything in this world, goes by the same cycle, just different techniques, different approaches
when you drift, you gotta know how much brake you need to apply, how much speed is needed to be maintained such that the car doesnt slow down too much, how sharp the turning is, what gear to change for big or small turns etc.
when you study, you gotta know what can you properly perform yourself, how well you could calculate or memorize or comprehend, how long can you concentrate and how many times of practices needed etc.
when you wanna live long, you gotta know what should be eaten and what shouldn't, how long your body can take exercising, the times you should eat or not, the nutrition content of the food etc.
even when you games, you gotta know what gives you an advantage, what brings you to the condition of the advantage, what are the specifications of your every skill, the limit of yourself and how you have to overcome your weakness etc.

so when it comes to trying not to feel this way, what should be done?

when you wanna socialize, you gotta know which group you can easily belong to, what to say to trigger a sucessful joke, what to say to make your point clear, what not to say that makes situations awkward, when to listen when someone speaks up, what not to say to avoid unforeseen consequences, what constructive advices to give when it's time to aid mentally, what annoying naggings to avoid conflicts among individuals, when and when not to judge, etc.

a thanks to all the people who made me realise this

change in writing style huh?
screamos now makes me cough
God must've hated me singing
Well, it aint strange since i tried singing CoF
i'm a free thinker btw

(haven't being able to write the usual way, this entry is just a filler)