Whisper.wma

why?
life has got to move on
and i can't do anything about it
i'm not the saddest person in the world
i should be fine
yet i still like to complain
here goes..

asked her out few times
she said not now
she's not free
doesnt seem so..
or is it that she's not free for me at this moment
asked her if she would go if she's free
'why not?'
but she didnt say yes
'next time..'
delay?
or denial through delay?
i would do the same if i were her
if we swap our places

bad habit's reoccuring
should think positively..
at least 'why not?' usually means yes
or maybe she wants to spend a long period of time with me so any time now is inadequate
...
that's a little too optimistic
well is it that the timing is wrong
or i'm just not the right one
unexplainable facts
reality..

wondering what's she doing now..
hope family dinners dont bore her
wanted to talk to her
afraid
awkward
would do so if she wants to
but does she?