Enlightening Wound

sometimes i think
i look down at myself at times
or maybe
i like to say myself a little lousier than i should be
and hoping that people around me to convince me that i'm not
and also hoping to be complimented instead
but rather
there was a time i came across this thought
i'm so hypocritical
i show an expression without confidence
but inside my mind i am waiting to be praised
i wonder if other individual who looks down at himself have the same thought as me
the liking to be consoled, complimented, clarified..

i should not depend on others to build up my confidence
i should have some self-confidence
indepedence and confidence

you should not be so reliant

and since treating people like that is hypocritical
a common reply, from others, would be hypocritical too
and people who suspect my intentions
would probably just ignore

you should not be so reliant
thanks for saying this
i used to be similar to you but as i grow i find this attitude immatured and your old enough so you should stop being like that
thanks for saying this too