feather fragments # 9: oh sorry i dont remember

'How was the dinner there?'
'Didn't go because of you ma.'
(wasn't exactly word to word because it's just remembered but trust me it's almost like that)

Fung organized an eating trip to Bukit Genting (the pg one) and Toby, Siren and I were invited. I couldn't make it due to my work time and i'm booked for another gathering as early as a month ago. My ex-collegemates were probably fed up with me not showing up to their events a number of times around that time. Or did i think too much. Whatever.

Instead, Siren and Toby or Siren or Toby invited me for a movie on that particular day. It was quite late but i was, again, invited before them by another group of guys for dota. Why the bad timing! Subsequently i was a little silent during the gambling session. I drank little to no alcohol. Maybe i wasnt noticed at that time, but i think i'm kind of being a cold blanket there. (with reasons, though) Too late to apologize, huh?

My mind was drowned in a non-existent dilemma. Non-existent by meaning because the decision is made supposingly, making it not a dilemma. At the same time, the perverted side of me was sulking deep inside. Or more correctly, outside too. Evil thoughts like ditching people came to me for awhile and dissipated in a few seconds later, repetitively. I'm such an asshole.

And finally the one asked me and my gang to dota didnt show up. Wanna ditch but didnt and end up being ditched. Karma.

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Siren and co. were supposed to watch RedCliff2 but didnt because the tickets were sold out at that time. Using that as a chance i asked her if she wanted to watch the movie, with all the details left out purposely besides the time. If i could remember, Toby was no longer at Penang at that time, and neither of us are close to Fung. That makes the two of us, only if she didnt brought any of her friends, which she didn't. (Thanks!) I didn't ask for a dinner though fearing she would not show up at all. However she said she had to be back at 11 to pray since it was the ninth day of CNY.

The showtime was after dinner time, around 8 to 9, with Gurney an earlier one and Queensbay a later one. Fearing the same ordeal that happened to her would reoccur again, i went to Queensbay to purchase the tickets directly after work. My original plan was to buy them at Gurney first but it didnt happen due to time constraint. This is because she lives near there and would almost surely prefer to watch it there. Oh well, just to be safe.

So i arrived at her place at 8. It took her almost 15 minutes for her to come out from her house but the wait was worth it though, she applied makeup. Not that i'm a big fan of makeup, the fact that she didnt put any during Quantum of Solace and Twilight kinda cheered me up. She did, during her birthday, though. She knew she was going to be momentarily alone with me, no? Or was she presenting herself to look better when she visits her relative's place.. just to pray? No, i'm not jumping up and down for that, but there's a slight-itchy-giggle-happy kind of sensation.

She wore what she wore on the boat and being hugged by him, that night.

The second little fact that tickled me was that she intentionally skipped her dinner with her family. I amaze myself at times on how i manage to make myself slightly happy from non-existent things at times. I asked if she wanted to eat something but she said she's on diet (doubt that) plus there's not enough time for the movie. As expected, she wanted to watch the show at Gurney. The miser side of me bids farewell to the RM20 for the Queensbay tickets and secretly hopes for the seatings in Gurney to run out so i can impress her by having prepared a backup plan earlier; while the perverted side of me intended to devise a plan to let her know of my earlier preparation accidentally intentionally. Unluckily, or luckily, neither of those scenarios happened.

As we were making our way towards the cinema we bumped into a colleague of mine, Sultan. He was mesmerized by Siren's beauty and utterly surprised that i was the one walking with her. Due to him being a busybody, he partially knew about my pitiful history being a pervert. Without thinking much, he greeted me and threw me a question before i introduced her to him,

"oh, is this Akasha?"

My heart sank. Even though the answer can be given almost immediately by me, it took me a few seconds to recover from the awkwardness to reply him. A sudden gush of murdering-him-to-silence-him-for-spoiling-my-'da(y/te)'-intention rised up but only to fade away in that few seconds. We happened to be there to watch the same movie at the same time. After a brief introduction of each other by me, we parted ways.

She invited me to one of her performances which would be on the next week at that time. (7th February 09). The theme would be CNY-ish. It's not like i'm that close to her at that time, nor was my feelings towards her as developed as later. Furthermore it's gonna be super weird to go alone to a concert which is not my choice of genres. So, judging from now, i was stupid enough to reply her 'see how'.

Somewhere along the way i told her that i felt she would be rather called cute/keai/wenjing (question @ goodnightnsweetdreams) than the other (yao yan). She commented that as long as it's a compliment then it's fine, but somehow i think she kind of forgotten that she asked me such a question. Towards the end of the movie, she commented that the last part of the movie was to dramatic and the characther linchiling was playing should die. Haha. Ironic cause the next thing she told me is that someone back in Australia commented she resembles her in terms of appearance but she does not think so. Meh.

Movie was long and by the time it finished i had to drop her back at her place. Nothing memorable to anyone else i guess. Too short. Too little things done. I wonder if it's even considered a date. However, I asked her a little bit about her studies regarding vocal, and the answer came with clearer explanations and examples that she sang herself, eg ornament differences between Baroque, Classical and modern era, which honestly speaking, i could barely understand. Nevertheless comparing the authenticity that time with the first time i inquired her regarding the same topic, i felt a certain degree of satisfaction.

tbc..